All Over Red Rover

Well that was.. um.. what's the word I'm looking for.. disturbing, devastating, horrific... yes all of the above. The cramps etc started April 1st [quite fitting really] and the next few days were a horrible mess. I was feeling extremely fragile and just wanted to be left alone, but my parents came to visit and DH couldn't manage to keep the kids away even for just a few days!!

Anyhoo, we are speaking again now. We went away for Easter, just the two of us, and I am starting to feel somewhat sane and in control of my emotions again. I am always amazed at the restorative powers of the sea on the human soul.

I had appt with my Dr yesterday. He was all positive "well you have proven you can do it now" and I was all negative "the only thing this has proven to me is that my body does not like babies". My hormone levels are back down to normal, so Dr and DH are keen to start another cycle when AF next appears. Once bitten, twice shy - I'm still a bit hesitant and wonder if we should wait another month. I'll think about it over the next few weeks...