Thursday, 18 February 2010


DH and I are overwhelmed my your love and support. DH has tried many times but not been able to read all your comments, so moved by the kindness of strangers.

A huge thank you to my gorgeous bloggy mates Eden, Stacie and Mrs Mask for recruiting extra prayers. We are going to need all the help we can get for this new fight.

My uncle visited today. His 40yo stepson was diagnosed late last year with Stage 4 cancer of the rectum with spots on the liver as well. He's been having chemo for about a month now and the main tumor has reduced from 75mm (same size as my lymph node tumor) to less than 7mm and the liver spots have dramatically reduced as well.

We have been crying every day but we have hope. Hope has always and will always be with us.

I am just anxious to start treatment and get the fight on.


Lost in Space said...

I can't think of any words that seem appropriate. Please know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

battynurse said...

Thinking of you all and sending many healing thoughts and wishes your way.

Lisa said...

Oh, my sweet bloggy friend, I just saw your news. I am so deeply sorry you're dealing with this and can't even begin to express how much I wish I could do something to help. Much love and grace to you, your DH, your precious baby, and your whole family. Hugs and more hugs and then some more hugs. You are in my prayers.

edenland said...

Hey spunky. I have been thinking of you constantly ... literally, all the time.

When Dave was finally diagnosed, the hard part was waiting until treatment started. It was like, come ON already! Bring it on, motherf@ckers!! Starting chemo was simultaneously terrible and relieving.

Game on, cancer.

I still can't believe Dave had cancer. Neither can he. We worry it will come back, every bloody day. In the meantime, we *try* to cherish every day. The most important things in life aren't things.

Cancer treatments really have come a long way. All that cancer research and fundraising .... it works.

I am holding you and your hubby, your beautiful baby, and of course your stepkids up in my heart, as you move forward to the next step of this.

Hoping the power and love of the internets shines through your computer onto you.


Wordgirl said...


I think of you so often -- I was out of town and just read the latest news. I hope I've told you what a steadfast and true friend you've been to me in the blogosphere -- one of those fellow ttc stepmoms who understood the nature of the desire so deeply -- I wanted you to know that you and yours are in my heart every day.

You're voice sounds so strident and strong. I've admired you since we met -- and never more so than now.

With love,


kateypie35 said...

Eden sent me...
I have nothing good to say, not sure the right words to give you comfort. But I am here. So many are here with you.
Hold on to your hope with all your might, and everyone out here in internet land will hope and pray too! You are not alone in this.

Natika said...

I've been praying every night for your family since I found out.
I can't imagine how overwhelming it is. I wish you strength!

Stacie said...

I am still thinking of you lots and sending all my strength and love your way! Bring on the treatments so you can fight this f**ker.

I have so much hope that you will beat this and see your little one's wedding and kids!

Anonymous said...

If I could, I would give you some words of wisdom. I don't have any, however, so because any friend of Eden is a friend of mine, I am sitting here with a virtual session of hugs, tears and lots of chocolate. (Las Vegas is pretty far away, no?) I hope that the prayers being sent your way warm your soul and your families, and help to fight that cancer!!!

Thalia said...

What absolutely dreadful news. I hope that the drugs make a big difference.

Noelle said...

We will all be here praying for you and sending hugs and strength your way!

(another) karen said...

just found your blog through LFCA and am heartsick at your news. i am a lurker, not a commenter in general, but just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

wishing you all comfort, peace and strength.


Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and wishing and hoping that the new fangled drugs work, work, work.

LittleWhiteDove said...

I just found your blog via Mrs M@sk, and couldn't leave without commenting. But then I realized I have no idea what to say. My heart is breaking for you an your family. I wish you all the very best for the incredibly horrible journey you are on, and I really hope the new drug treatment has a positive impact.

Nearlydawn said...

I came over from Stacie's blog...

So sorry to see that you are going ot have to wage yet ANOTHER war so soon. Maybe being battle-hardened will help you though - you know how to get through tough shit without giving up.

Saying prayers for you and yours. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

There is a several part series that started today in the New York Times about drugs for melanoma. Here is a link to the first one.

Be warned that the first many pages of this are about failures; you could always skip reading those and go to the last page. But the last part is where they increase the dosage of a new drug and have their first success (the tumors of a terminal patient disappear). It sounds like in the parts to come there is more hope.
The second I saw the title of the article, I thought of you. Goodness how I hope this drug can help you.

Amanda said...

Here from Eden and sending prayers!

Another Julia said...

Love, hope, and good wishes are all heading your way.
Someone survives every kind of cancer...when they told us our baby had a leukemia from which he would not likely recover, well, we were devastated. He is now three years off-treatment (which lasted nearly three years), and cancer free. I fervently hope that your cancer journey will end with the same good outcome.
Hope is entirely appropriate:
Hoping for a swift and complete recovery for you.

Anonymous said...

I landed here via a friend of a friend. I have a six month old daughter and I am praying for a miracle for you. Please consider what someone else said about going totally organic. I've seen first-hand that it can help. With your permission, I'd like to add your name to our prayer group next week.

Anonymous said...

I'll be praying to St. Rocco (seen Eden's blog today?) with you in my heart tonight. I'm so glad you are filled with hope.

Melbagirl said...

I don't know why but I had an urge to check your blog. The only blog I've checked in months. I just wanted to know how you were doing.

God help you. This is so unfair.

I remember in October when you had the benign scare in your breast and we all breathed a sigh of relief.

And now this.

It's almost as if you were meant to have Kayla. If they had discovered it earlier you would have stopped the IVF and your family wouldn't be what it is today.


My dear friend, I am so devastated for you. My prayers will be thick and fast.

sara said...

Just letting you know I'm still hear reading along...hoping and praying...and praying some more...

Lisa said...

Just stopping in to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers every day.

andi said...

OOOOOOOO Louise - I have just seen your news - and bloody hell - I have tears running down my face.

I am sending you all my love - and wishes it has a happy ending.


Shazz said...

Just checking in on you ( A melbourne girl). You know what you are IVFers have this pig headedness in us!! I am sending alot of love and strength your way and will be here to support you every step of the way.