Tuesday, 12 August 2008

Pee sticks are evil

This is my first experience with a positive pee stick before the blood test.
I think I'm doing it right; same brand, first pee of the day, more than 10 days after the trigger shot.
Yesterday's second line was faint.
This morning's was bordering on the invisible.
I have no symptoms.
I tried not to get excited. But in rode Hope wearing her full regalia on her fancy white horse, Moet in one hand, party shoes in the other. Haven't seen hide nor hair of her this morning. I imagine she's trying to sleep off a hangover in a corner somewhere, tiara askew, one shoe missing.
Today I'm confused and scared.
Mostly scared.
Why is my line disappearing?

Thursday afternoon is an age away.
How do I function like a sane person until then?


melbagirl said...

Oh my dear Sweetie,

Cruel pee stick.

Of course, there are many stories of ladies who have never tested positive on a pee stick and still had a successful blood test.

There's twenty different reasons why your line looks fainter.

Bloody Hope ... if I see her over my way I'll give her 'what for'.

Thinking of you and praying for your miracle.

Topcat said...

Ack. Oh!!! Hurry up Thursday, I can imagine every second taking an hour for you.

I peed on about 27 pee sticks, all different brands, some faint, some dark.

((((((((hugs)))))))) to you my lovely friend. I continue to hold you in my thoughts. xoxoxoxo

sara said...

This is just cruel...the waiting and the pee sticks. I'm so sorry that you have to wait a few more days. I will continue to think good positive thoughts for you...

Stacie said...

I agree. They are evil. I agree with everyone else. There are many reasons why this happened. I am sending hugs your way while you wait for Thursday (to hear GOOD news).

Sweetpea said...

I hate it when they mess with your head like that ('they' as in [choose one or as many as apply]: the evil pee stick devils, the higher powers, the overconfident REs, your anxious but ready body parts, or whatever else that gets all your hopes up - for a legitimate reason. Like you don't have enough to worry about. I do hope that you end up with a positive beta, despite the roller coaster to get there. Breath (I forget sometimes). xxoo

LL said...

Ah, that Hope is a real fish-face mole! (sorry, I watched Puberty Blues the other night) Dead set!

I'm sorry... this is so f#%ked up!

Wordgirl said...

Oh do I hate those damned sticks.

What can one do while waiting? I eat incessantly *sigh* which explains some things ...

I also dive into books -- fully and completely -- oh, and cable television shows...

I'll be thinking of you E.S.; I really, really hope this is the cycle.



Joonie said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through this, the uncertainty of it all! Don't put much stock in the color of the line though. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Lisa said...

Seriously, the lines can differ even with the same dang brand of HPT from the same box taken at the same time one day later. Dyes differ, urine concentration differs, ETC. Try not to stress too much. Thursday's is the test that matters!!!

Hugs and more hugs. I know it's a terrible wait.

Rebecca said...

This is a rough spot. Try to keep yourself as busy as possible and out of the house if possible...it's rough not doing something you want to do so badly...good luck and thinking about you guys.

Sassy said...

I'm thinking about you and hoping tomorrow is a very good day. Take care.

Mr. & Mrs. M@sk said...

Another biochemical pregnancy would just be way too cruel so I am holding onto hope that it was just a faulty HPT. Hang in there. xoxo

Topcat said...

I have been thinking of you a lot today ... and obsessively refreshing your blog.


I thought today was Thursday. It's f*ckin killin' ME, can't imagine how you are doing.


fancy parenthesis hugs to you xoxo